To the Moon and Back

I somewhat think that the lady I will one day wed will not be someone that is capable of fulfilling and conforming to my values.

But rather someone that is capable of changing my values.

Causative.

I don't love them enough. Hence I should not expect them to love me as much.

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It's somewhat caustic to me to not have somebody to love. Somewhat.

Ergo, ergo, ergo?

I have a Fear of Loneliness.

Left and Right I look, People just have that Little More than I do.
A Little More than I can, a Little More than I can have.

I try to pretend I am not, but I truly am. Yes, Envious.

I Liked to Think, and Thought a lot.
'Hey, maybe it's a Problem with Myself! Let's try to Change That!'

I Headbutt myself into the Lives of Others, showing little Concern to the Gazes and Stares.

But with much Caution, Conscious of my own Conscience.

Taking Bullets, breaking Bullets, and reassembling Bullets.

Yet, Slaying the Bull yielded no Beef in The End.
It lies Deeper, Darker than where I can Peer.
With more Danger, Despair than I can Bear.
With Doubt, that I can last another Bout.

I came Back to You, whose benign Love is akin to a Phoenix.

Reborn when Dead, and Rejuvenated when Exhausted.

Refilled when Dried, and Replenished when Extracted.

Inexorable.

But nonetheless Ephemeral...


Ergo, I will not Stop:

I will Continue to Seek,
And Cull my Weak.

Down but up soon.

Yes Life, you've knocked me down. But no, you don't get to win. I'll get up now, and I'll definitely kick you in the ass.

The Fool's Oath.

'Grown numb then grown wont... I swore I'd never return to this place where your tombstone lay. On it the epitaph that I carved and never want to read. Maybe... Maybe! I'm really just a little mad! ... And a little sad... But I'm glad! I think... Or am I, really?'

'Haha yes you are, you are, you really are! You really really really really are! ... You are.'

'I'll never re-enter this maw 'til You grow stronger. I promise.' 

Fullmetal.

Edward: Winry...
Winry: What?
...
Winry: Come on, just tell me straight!
...
Edward: IT'S EQUIVALENT EXCHANGE! I'LL GIVE YOU HALF MY LIFE, SO GIVE ME HALF OF YOURS!
Winry: You idiot... You want half of it? I'll give you all of it...
...
Winry: Wait, maybe not all, 90%! Wait that's still a lot... Maybe 80%, no 70%... Wait 70% is too little, maybe 85%...?

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Cutest confession and reaction I've read, I swear!
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A lesson without pain if meaningless.
That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.
But, once you've withstood the pain and overcome it.
You will gain a heart that's stronger than any other.
Yes, a Fullmetal heart.

-Edward Elric

They've got nothing on you.

I wonder what got into me to visit a hospital at midnight.
March on, Oranje.

Faith

Hear

See

Confess

Act
Sacrifice
Persevere

Vision of Love

I realised.

I just really like people. : )

A Tinge Of Jealousy.

Me and Huaj


'Wah, you suddenly have growth spurt for hair is it? Leg hair more apparent liau.'


'Hmmm, it's not something I fancy.'


'Well, at least nobody will call you hairless anymore hahaha!'


'Hahaha you know when the girls call me hairless, I always feel that they say so with a tinge of jealousy.'


'Hahaha! Maybe, maybe!'


'Must be working out la, testosterone level increased, then grow more hair.'


'Hmmm, I don't seem to have much hair yet...'


'... You girl-man.'


'I sense a tinge of jealousy!'


HAHAHAHA!

Coup de Grace.

'This is a pursuit where I see no horizon and chase only shadows. But it is still one dream that I will never regret fighting for, however it may end.'


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Today, while swimming, Ashley suddenly popped a question out of nowhere.
'Are you scared of me?' - Ashley.
I burst out laughing immediately.

According to Jun, Jou and Ash, I portray a nerd really really well.

*NERDLAUGH* HHEHEHEHEHEHE.

HEHE-worthy quotes.

After being slave-driven by the girls in the shopping mall,

'BUTT ON CHAIR IS LIKE HEAVEN ON EARTH!'


'HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN DENIED SHOPPING!'


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'When you take ideas from one person, that's plagiarism. But when you take ideas from many people, it's research!' - Miss Jess


'If you keep turning the key of your car to start the engine, slowly the battery will start to overheat and might explode. Very dangerous. But sometimes you turn the key, turn turn turn, then the battery, gone liau, no more. Then very safe already. You can keep turning until you are satisfied. Won't explode one.' - Mr Hoo


'You can draw me by drawing one small circle, one normal circle, and one big circle, then attach four limbs and that's me la!' - Miss Chin making fun of herself. xD


lol.

She's Nobody's Angel.

'I am really happy and flattered, even honoured that I'm such an important part of your life. But I'm sorry, you're really not that important to me at all.'

Twisted logic.

LET'S SAY, you backed into a man holding a fragile object. The object breaks. You turn around. Thinking it's your fault, you promise him you'd compensate for it. 
However, turns out, that man himself was very much aware of your back-pedalling and could have easily alerted you well beforehand, instead he continued and knocked into you as you backed into him, and thus dropped the object. 
So actually, it's not really your fault after all. 
Should you still have to pay for the object, plainly because you promised, even after you find out it's not your fault at all?


LET'S SAY, I promise to help deliver a package for someone, oblivious to it's contents. 
And then, I find out that it's drugs that is being smuggled. 
Do I comply and still deliver it simply because I promised?


LET'S SAY, you and I are strangers, seeing from afar, I see that you're about my height. I made a bet with you in which I promise to pay you a certain amount of money if you're taller than me. You agreed. We walk towards each other. 
Turns out, you're taller than me.
HOWEVER, you were wearing stilts.
So you really aren't taller than me. No, you're shorter.
I still have to pay because I promised?


LET'S SAY, I promise, I will seek retribution from a certain man for the murder of someone I know.
Turns out, he is innocent.
I still kill him, because I promised, right? By the logic of 'keeping your promises'?


Basically, LET'S SAY:


1) You promise in the state of oblivion.
2) You find out the truth.
3) Do you still have to keep your promise?


Wait, let's put that in perspective once more,


LET'S SAY, you promised to get something done.
Turns out, what you have to do isn't a good deed at all.
I promised you, must I follow suit?


LET'S SAY, I thought I was wrong. I promised to make amends.
Turns out, I was not wrong, YOU were wrong.
But I promised to make amends, so I must keep my promise?


LET'S SAY, I promise, I will massacre the whole of a certain neighbourhood, on the basis that they have contracted an incurable disease that will only spread and cause a pandemic that nobody can escape from.
Turns out, they are healthy and fit as a fiddle.
But I still go on a mass genocide, simply because I promised, even if the basis is no longer true?
'Money is not the problem.' Oh really? Then why are you still seeking compensation, Mr. Hypocrite?

Ludicrous.
And I thought adults were supposedly much too mature for these games.


I'll keep my end of the bargain, but hey, that's only if Truth keeps its end of the bargain.

Snooze

Today when my alarm rang, I was already in the toilet brushing my teeth. (Rare scenario. lol.)

So I ignored it, and incidentally, when I returned to my alarm, my phone read, 'Alarm on 9-minute snooze.'

Even alarms need to snooze, you know?

-.-

Why Am I Gonna Let You Try?

All good things come to an end.

My Blog is good, and This is The End.

I Will Learn Before I Die

In the end, that was an awfully extravagant amount of work and time taken just to light up a few candles.

But it the end, seeing those smiles, it was all worth it. Congratulations! :D

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... to live, to love and to try.

'I know you're still here and listening. Talk.'

'.....'

'Convince me that you're not here then.'

'I'm really not here!'

Megalomania

It could be wrong, could be wrong, but it should have been right.

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I hate this shitty feeling lol.

'HELLOOOO! I AM COOL!
Well, looks like I won't be getting 500 Days of Summer in the end.
WHAT'S UP!? I FLUSHED THE TOILET TWICE TODAY! YOU?
But hopefully I'll get another movie that's just as great, if not better next time! : )
GOODBYEEE! SEE YOU ANOTHER DAY!'

Is really not what my blog is about lol.

Nowadays I just blog to note how much I've grown.

And if I'm lucky, inspire somebody!

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Robbie Williams, please get out of my head? I get your message already.