Sunday, January 31, 2010

To be honest.

There's no point if there's no joy.

I once knew of a boy who smiled a lot. But no matter how much he smiled. You just somewhat sensed that there was a melancholic meaning hiding behind those pearly white teeth.

So why does he smile?

I know not. Perhaps it was to not worry the people he cared for. Perhaps it was to convince himself that he has not been brought down. Perhaps it is to convince himself that he actually is happy. Maybe he just wants to smile.

But in the end. It is but a pointless facade.

But whatever it is.
I'm not going back to being that weak-willed, helpless little boy again.

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some stupid emo post on some stupid emo forum i saw.


Can tell me why people so emo these days ah? Very fun meh. -.-

'I want to cut myself. This life has no meaning. I don't need anything else now.'

Please do if you so desire to waste your life.

At least this guy wants to change! :D

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Love letter to Miss Sunshine.


Dear brilliant Sunshine,

I've seen you grow up since I was born. You used to be so gentle... You gently carressed my skin and brought warmth to my life. You brought light to my eyes and I spent many countless days staring at your brilliance.

You were like this:



But now... You're like...




This... >(

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Lately the weather's been like a frying pan.
How I wish I have a flying fan.
If this goes on, I'm gonna have a tan.
But it's alright. I am a man!

Why is the weather so panas baran lately?
If only it can eat a chill pill and feel the ice cold of the air cond.
Then it will calm down and sits down and go 'PHEW I SHOULDN'T HAS ACTS SO BRASHLY!'.
If I ken has you, I no want nopati else bebeh.

Yala, bodoh Matahari. I wish you burn yourself out and perish soon! Oh wait. You ARE doing that.

Dang, I will miss you Mentari-sama. Please don't go away, you used to treat me so sweet, now you treat me so sour! Just give me one more chance! But please be more shy and hide behind the clouds more ah, I no want to see you so much. EHEHEHEhEhEHeZxx ^^V

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In short, why is the weather so calamitously hot lately? 

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Elsewhere, I've made some friends, I must say. 

And we played futsal yesterday, under the burning hot shades of gold that you exude.

Which brings me back to the crux of the letter.

CHILL LA WEI, VERY HOT LAHHH!

Sincerely,
Your loving, ever-so macho uncle,
Sally.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Smells Like Teen Spirit.






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Just kinda browsing through my old pictures. :D

Fun times, fun times!

And more to come, surely?

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Explode and burst forth!
Jump and be morphed!

No time to waste!
It is a race!

Bring on your zeal!
Show us some steel!

Don't hide your face!
Just feel the taste!

Ribbit!
It's the teen spirit!

Is this as far as I get?

Feel it!
The teen spirit!

No, Dad! Please don't regret!

Banana split!
It smells like teen spirit!

Just reset and get set!

Sprint off the line!
You little porcupine!

(No this is not the lyrics of the song. Just me blabbering around. lol!)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hello.

I know I don't belong here and I'm not supposed to be here.

But I like being here and I'll stay here and enjoy my time until I'm found out. And then I'll leave.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Victoria Concordia Crescit


'WHO ARE YOU KIDDING? 
WE ARE TOP OF THE LEAGUE!'




Where is the Love, Arsenal version. :D

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I am not a hero. I am not an angel. I'm just a man.
Man who's tried to love her. Unlike any other. In her eyes, I am.
Nice song. :D

Sunday, January 17, 2010

The Dunce Repents.

Repent! Repent!
Quickly, before your life is spent!
Dissent! Dissent!
Where have thee courage went?
Resent! Resent!
Let not your will be bent!
Ascent! Ascent!
Ignore the temptations the Devil has sent!

Do not relent!
Do not lament!
Do not assent!
Do not be dent!

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Sometimes I want to explode.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Summer Sunshine.

Shadows race through the woods.

Leaves rustle under the moonlight.

Fates unwind and intertwine.

 

‘Jake, come on! Get up and get moving, don’t sleep down there!’

‘You go on! Leave me behind, I can’t make it, I’ll only be a burden.’

‘You’re nobody’s burden, you’ve been great all this while, now get up!’

‘No, please leave me behind! I’m useless now.’

‘Shut up, no way we’re doing that!’

‘No Zack, really, please lea-‘

‘SHUT UP AND LISTEN!’

 

A rare moment of silence. 

 

‘Look, nobody, nobody! Nobody can say they haven’t been proud of you so far. You have been nothing short of a revelation. You were the one that saved us. You were the one that got us through that shithole there. You were the one that came up with the plan! It worked, and we’re alive. Now don’t give up just like that! If you’re a real man, get back on your feet!’

‘But I really believe I'll only be a bur-‘

‘No buts! Just shut up and listen to me. Don't believe in yourself! Believe in me who believes in you! You’re not useless, no, not at all! Not even in this state! Now get going, we really don’t have much time.’

 

Jake takes Zack’s outstretched hand and together with Belle, they sprint through the woods as quickly as they could.

 

‘Any sign of them?’

‘No, Sir.’

‘Keep searching!’

‘Yes, Sir!’


‘Zack, I think we’ve lost those mercenaries.’

‘Let’s hope so. Keep going!’

 

 

Forests are really cold at night. Cold like ice.

On that night, the insignificant, inglorious flame of the campfire was the only source of warmth in that muddy, unsightly marsh which was in no way mellow at all.

 

‘Hey, Jake!’

‘Hey, Belle.’

‘Feeling better yet?’

‘A lot better, thanks to Zack!’

‘Yeah, he’s really great isn’t he?’

‘Indeed!’

 

Jake scans Belle’s (who was grimacing in pain) face and he notices that she wants to say something but is hesitant.


‘I-‘ 

‘You like him, don’t you?’

‘Eh wha-‘

‘I can tell!’

‘… Really?’

“Haha it’s alright, I won’t scream it out loud!’

‘Thanks!’

‘I’ll tell you something about him!’

‘I’m all ears!’

‘Me and him, we’re brothers! Well we’re not blood related, but it’s as close as it gets. We’re both orphans, you know. Our parents died in an earthquake when we were little and we met soon after at the orphanage. He was the crazy loudmouth who never knew how to keep quiet and I admired him for his tenacity and willpower. The two of us and our friends always got bullied by the bigger boys but he always stood up for us. Even though we never won and got beaten up all the time, he still would stand up in front of them if they come, telling us, ‘Believe in yourselves!’ and ‘Don’t give in to them!’ And those soon became his signature phrase.

There was once when we got trapped under the debris during an earthquake. We thought we would be dead for sure, but Zack didn’t give up. He just kept smiling and laughing, yelling at us, ‘Come on guys, this is nothing, we can get out of this mess! Believe in yourselves!’, ‘It’s just rocks boys! You’re gonna let rocks beat you?’, ‘This is stupid, they thought this would stop us?’, ‘Ah, a new game from the Gods, I like it!’ He always laughed off all his problems. Honestly, if it weren’t for him, perhaps I would have given up and died in that pile of rubble. But thanks to him, I didn’t, I felt that I couldn’t complain if he put it that way, and I persisted. We persevered and we soon got out of the mess, alive and well.

I always needed to rely on him… And this time too. I’m really pathetic eh?’

‘No you’re not!’

‘He… Makes the impossible possible. He makes things happen.

He’s… The best big brother I’ll ever have…

A pause.

‘Hey I think I’ll go get some rest now.’

‘Don’t get upset! And thanks for the story, Jake! Good night!’

 

 

Belle treads carefully on the muddy forest floor, trying to not wake Zack up. She finally gets to the tree that Zack was leaning against, but unfortunately, being the utter klutz that she is to increase her kawaii rating, she couldn't help but spoil the moment by stepping on a twig.


‘Oh, Belle, not resting yet?’

‘Sorry, I woke you up!’

‘It’s fine! Is something up?’

‘Oh no- No, nothing! Jake just told me about your childhood just now!’

‘Jake did? Hahaha, well what’d he tell you?’

‘About the orphanage. And the earthquake!’

‘Oh, he sure likes to boast!’

‘What?’

‘Hahaha, I’ve never people this, but the kids never really got along with me you know? They thought I was a noisy eyesore, that I’m cocky and that I’m arrogant. Well, maybe I am, but that’s not the point. The point is, they disliked me! And so I thought that if I stood up for them, and got beaten up for them, they might like me a little more. It didn’t work. They’d just leave me be and let the older boys beat me. But Jake, that popular kid, he would fight with me, and so I fought for him.

I wasn’t the only one though. He got along really well with the rest of the kids, and they couldn’t bear seeing him get beaten. And everything started from there. Even after being bruised and battered, we little boys could still find joy and laugh at what happened then, and all of us became close friends soon after.

And that’s the true story of the orphanage.’

‘Oh…’

‘The earthquake! It was terrifying. I have never been more afraid and death had never been more real. All I could do to prevent myself from breaking down was to laugh at the very source of the terror, hoping that it would suppress my fears.

I put on a brave front and pretended to not be intimidated. But that was all I could do. It was Jake again, who got me out of trouble. Silently, using some tools we found, he just kept pressing on without complaining, breaking away boulder and rock after boulder and rock. His silent determination inspired us, and we never gave up until the end. And, we got out of that mess, alive and well.

So you see, I’ve always relied on him when trouble came calling.

I was so glad that I could help him escape this time.

He’s… The best little brother I’ll ever have.’

‘I see…’

‘Is something wrong?’

‘No, but he said he was the one that always relied on you!’

‘Gah, that liar! I was the one that always relied on his abilities. All I ever did was be a cheerleader and go ‘Believe in yourself!’ All I ever did was trust in him. He was the one that made the invisible visible and the unseen seen. He made things happen.’

‘Heh, you two really are brothers! You say the same things!’

‘Huh? I can’t imagine him saying ‘Believe in yourself!’ in a girly voice, Cheerleader style!’

‘Mmmmm, who knows! He could have!’

‘HE REALLY DID THAT?’

‘No I’m not telling you!’

‘I’m not letting you get away! Tell me!’

‘No way!’

 


‘AHA! You’re cornered now!’

‘Oh nooooo, I’m so afraid! What are you gonna do to me!?!?’

‘I’m not letting you go!’

‘Oh pleaseeee don’t do that to me! Will you kindly let me go if I give you a kiss!?’

‘Well that’s almost too good to refuse! I’ll think abou-‘

 

 

’Ten times.’

‘What?’

‘When the war ends, I’ll repay that to you ten times.’

 ‘Oh…

I can’t wait for the war to end then!’

 

 

 ‘You know, I’m really surprised!’

‘About what?’

‘I always thought you liked Jake!’

‘Did not!’

‘How about that time at the barn where you two were gazing at the stars on the roof!’

‘That was nothing! We were just chatting!’

‘AH, and the time where you made coffee for him but not for me!’

‘That was just to tease you!’

‘Ohhhh, is that so? I’m going to tell Jake about your adoration for him tomorrow morning!’

‘Hey!’

‘Boo booooo! You cannot catch me! You cannot- OWW THAT HURT!’

‘Serves you right! Don’t play with these things!’

‘Right, right!’

‘Hey look, it’s sunrise!’

‘Wow, it’s beautiful, ain’t it?’

‘Yeah, let’s go wake Jake up! It’s too good to miss!’

‘Let’s!’

-END-

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Influences: Kamina, Simon, Yoko - TTGL.

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I got carried away with the last part. Had to end somehow though.

Sorry the narrating was a bit quack. HAHAHAHAH!


My message?


Sometimes, when you lose a little faith in yourself, how about you believe those who believe in you a little more?


Tolerate my horrible attempt at romance writing, but I thought the rest were quite alright. HEHEHE.


Trivia! When you join Jake and Zack, you get Jack!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Chapter IX

College started today.

I'm studying A-Levels at Tunku Abdul Rahman College for those who are interested.

It's. Hu. Ge.

It's huge.

The compound, I meant.

It's 10 or more times larger than my secondary school.

And the facilities are really top notch. 

(You know I kinda ponder how hostel life would be like because it seems really cool.)

Well got home at 6 today. I'm really spent. But today was quite a lot of fun.

Hope that will continue!

Good night.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Awaiting the day the Robin sings once more.

A new year arrives. 

Unfinished stories will continue and new prologues will sound.

Having just about finished carving words into the epitaph of 2009, I just can't help buy ponder, what would 2010 bring about?

As per the usual protocol, here's a new year's resolution list.

  1. Smile more.
  2. Sleep more.
  3. Sleep earlier.
  4. Use the computer less.
  5. Be nicer to people around me.
  6. Treat people rightly despite whatever aura they may exude and whatever my first impression about them is.
  7. Be more hardworking.
  8. Improve relationships.
  9. Give as good as I get.
  10. Make others smile more.

2010, bring it on!


It's just the beginning but I think I've already found the Quote of the Year:

Jinwai: EH HUAJIE I THINK YOUR DICK IS ON MY DICK!


Friday, January 1, 2010

Better but still bad.

I inadvertently feel stupid and silly sometimes.

It's quite fun though. HEHEHEHEHE.


Oh and happy new year people! :D