P R A Y H A R D

How much of a donkey do you need to be to sleep at 9 30 and yet feel ridiculously crap for the whole day? Evidently, however much that is, I am one!

But wait a minute,

Just how much sleep is 'enough sleep'?

I slept at 9 30 yesterday and I still feel like a fat swine that had it's eyelids' pinned open for 4314.2213 hours. Please halp~


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I am very grateful and probably more than just a little fortunate to have made it to school with just this 'stigmata' wound and an ugly bruise on my knee.


Hmmm, had I been cycling faster or had there been an onrushing car I think I would have been hospitalized or even be afflicted with (I'm sitting on a wooden chair as I write this) fatal wounds.

Have just one point to make today:

Accidents can happen anywhere, anytime and completely out of the blue. They can loom around silently and pounce when you least expect. So while you're at it, be cautious at all times. Fun is all good, but if the danger lights start flashing, please be careful. Never forget the presence of danger in every situation. Safety comes first!


Be grateful in every circumstance, and not for every circumstance.

Which means,

'I'm really glad I'm all well and fine!'

instead of

'WTF WHY THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN TO ME OF ALL PEOPLE!? LOOK AT THAT EMO GUY THERE? WHY NOT HIM!?!? WHY NOT THAT FAT DUDE THERE!?!? HUH HUH HUH? WHY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!?'



p/s: It sucks to have a wounded hand. :(

*grab pencil* OWW!
*grab towel* OWW!
*grab handphone* OWW!
*grab durian* OMGWTFBBQ!?

When the sangfroid falls, just pick it up again.

I can't believe I kena tuduh of being emo during a patch where I reckon I've been happier than a lot of people. =="

Alas, with the morbidity levels rising faster than a wooden cork in water, I have decided to menderma my dua sen and (attempt to) try to "liberate them from (their) Hell."

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#1, For the umpteenth time, "Me against the world" is a Goddamn fallacy.

I'm not really a Liverpool fan, but their anthem rings ever so true. You'll never walk alone.

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When babies are born, they only know how to crawl.

Slowly, they learn to walk, and run, and jump.

But during this learning process, more often then not, they will fall down, and cry and weep from the pain.

But you know what? They will get back on their feet sooner or later and continue to try, and finally, they succeed in walking, running and jumping.

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Why do people fall?

Why do people trip over things needlessly, lose balance, and drop to the floor?

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I think most of us can agree and accept that life's no bed of roses. If it was, it's a crazily thorned bunch of roses. It's no smooth sailing. There will be obstacles after obstacles, challenges after challenges, and hurdles after hurdles. These are things that we cannot avoid even if our lives depended on it.

If we're to face and stand up to a perpetual and eonian adversary such as this, we'd have to be thoroughly prepared and learned.

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People fall, so they can learn to get back up on their feet and continue to walk once more.

If you do not learn, dispel the thought that you'll ever walk again. And stay rooted in that rut you fell into by mistake. For if you do not learn, you'll only fall and fall and fall again in that depressed cycle of yours. So learn, get up as soon as you can and walk on!

And if you ever find it too difficult a task to stand after a painful fall, doubt not that people around you will give you a hand and try their best to hoist you back up. (Some may even piggyback you!) You're never alone.

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It's a barren world out there, but hey, we'll have to walk it 'til our very last breaths anyhow, so why sulk and punish yourselves when you can still put that bright smile on your faces and enjoy?

And besides, with the right people and the right circumstances, it may even turn out to be a walk to remember.

:D

Aku syukur aku anak bumi Malaysia~!

Salam sejahtera!

Hohoho, hari ni, saya nak 'immerse myself' dalam suasana Raya, nak 'eat wind' dan 'wash eye' supaya merasai keMalaysianan yang sejati dan tidak berbelah bagi.

Nak menyemai biji-biji patriotisme ke dalam sanubari dan jiwa! Kononnya la.

Nasi Lemak! Lemang! Ketupat!

Mmmmmmm... Oh sedapnya!

Mari kita katakan "tak nak" kepada roti canai dan chapati!

Hari-hari bosan, saja jalan-jalan, cari makan. Ada perkara 'happening' berlaku x? Rasanya x ade. :(

Orang berbosan mari kita berkumpul dan un-bosankan diri.

Jumpa lagi!

Jom berbatu!

Rasanya, bahasa rojak ko hebat dan handal 1x. Hohoho, bangga sial!

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In the midst of a boredom-laden and snail-paced September, I suddenly miss the ever-so-hectic-ness of the eventful July month. Ahhhh!

GAHHH MY EYES ARE BURNING HOT. BLOODY ARDOR + LACK OF SLEEP!

Random Number #2.

Hohoho, Huajie put up this poster of a question last night when we were playing some weird manifestation of football outside his house.

Chlorine is a poisonous gas.

Yet we still take Chlorine into our bodies everyday.

In the form of sodium chloride, which is err.... salt, and is probably used in 80% of our dishes.


So the general consensus is.... "Chemical properties of elements change once they combine." gua. =\

HOHOHO FUNNY PICTURE!

See that line? You never should have crossed it.

A good measure of his personality can be sensed from his first meeting with Stella. Noctis hides his shyness underneath a façade of coolness in front of him, which creates a cold and unsociable impression. However, he smiles and acts more openly around his friends, a testament to Nomura's statement that "[Noctis] is not the least bit a silent, gloomy little boy."


Hmmmmmmmm.

... Shall not have any idiosyncrasies.


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Had a long chat with a friend last night.

Even though I was the one that was supposed to help and give advice, I (perhaps accidentally) ended up talking a lot of sense that could be applied even to myself.


Things aren't really what they seem to be sometimes.
We're not really as strong as we'd like to think sometimes.
Yet the contrary is also true.
We're not really as weak as we sometimes think we are.

However content we are with running away, it just isn't the way to solve problems.

The world around us more or less affects what we do and what we are.
Conversely,
What we do and what we become affects the world around us.
So perhaps a little tweak to ourselves can actually help change things around us that we don't like... Hmmm?

It's only ever 'you against the world' when you don't let anyone else come into your life to help.


"Pain for me is fine, I don't want to hurt anyone else."

Hahaha, some kind of martyr my friend is.


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Holiday time is also pimple raising and eyebags growing time! Sadly, it's infinitely true and I already have plenty.

Sleep so late some more la.

Random Number.

Anyone else finds it ironic that the substance most commonly used to subdue fire is actually comprised of two highly combustible elements?




Lol. I'm talking about water you know?



Water = Hydrogen + Oxygen.

Both aid in combustion and supposedly produce an explosion when a mixture of them is lighted. Copper (II) Oxide empirical experiment, anyone?


The wonders of the world of chemistry.

Back to School.

Headed back to good ol' Damansara for reunion dinner. Not a lot of people that I don't get to meet much nowadays turned up, sadly. So didn't get to catch up with anyone much, only Andrea I guess, and she's not even my ex-classmate, lol!


That's me and sze being lazyworms! Heh. Talked with many teachers, and generally met quite a few people, though mostly juniors. I guess it's true that people's affinity towards their alma mater slowly fade with time. :|

Where's your sense of belonging!

The seniors didn't turn up but quite a good deal of the younger ones turned up. Was still relatively fun to watch the changes in people though. :D

And... After yesterday, I can safely conclude that Wai Seng is damn pat and Andrea is damn sampat.

=="

Cheerio.

Quizzical!

You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges. You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions. Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist. Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!). [LOOOOL I JUST DID THIS YESTERDAY! xD] Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others. And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you. You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically. Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas. Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

You Are a Question Mark

You seek knowledge and insight in every form possible. You love learning. And while you know a lot, you don't act like a know it all. You're open to learning you're wrong. You ask a lot of questions, collect a lot of data, and always dig deep to find out more. You're naturally curious and inquisitive. You jump to ask a question when the opportunity arises. Your friends see you as interesting, insightful, and thought provoking. (But they're not always up for the intense inquisitions that you love!) You excel in: Higher education You get along best with: The Comma

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Tulips Say You're Very Positive

You are very popular and universally admired. You are often hopelessly in love, and you connect to other people easily. You are a naturally cheerful and upbeat person. You have an amazing smile. You have a fresh perspective on things. You have a different way of looking at the world.

What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding



uhh. really?


.... I'm starting to feel quite gay doing these quizes.
Mel, Ying and Yun-influenced!

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'You're just like the Sun. You always feel the need to constantly shine and do something of notice.'

'You think so? I feel more like the Moon who needs the Sun to shine before I can even do anything.'

I like to:

I have very weird hobby/quirks, or so I am told.

They say I like to:

• Jump around shouting people's name without actually having anything to say.
• Stare 'intensely' at people while walking past them.
• Hide in corners and ambush people.
• Poke people when they are most unaware.
• Tickle people when they are vulnerable to attack.
• Quote people who spoke brilliant (or not) words.
• Tell them "Wow you've grown taller!"
• Build up and hype up a nothing thing.
• Mislead others into believing stupid things.
  
• Mess up people's hair.
• Act gangster.
• Scold myself.
• Think and talk in innuendos.
  (EDIT: Not in the malicious sense la. Had people questioning me lol.)
  
• Use weird metaphors.
  
• Cycle in the night or the early mornings where nobody is around.
• Keep everything to myself yet hint that I want to say something at the same time.
• Play 'Hard to get.' (not in the conventional sense.)
• Message people when everybody is supposed to be asleep.
• Lie down in the middle of nowhere.
• Do 'sudden attacks' and shock people.
• Prove people wrong.
• Climb stuff.
• Act all serious when I say lame stuff.
• Act all lame when I say serious stuff.
• Laugh at myself.
• Termenung and let my mind wander.
• Mutter gibberish out of nowhere.
• Start conversations with a weird line.
  
• Sing songs which consists of very weird lyrics.
• Modify well known songs to become songs which consists of very weird lyrics.
• Pretend I cannot see some people. (usually due to my eye level being quite high up.)
• Pretend I'm speaking another language.
• Pretend my wallet is my phone.
• Mess up 'he' and 'she'.
• Mess up 'him' and 'her'.
• (I love to!) Say something smart.

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Mmh yeah. I am damn weird huh?


Quote of the day:

"When you brought your index finger close to my face I thought you were just gonna poke me. BUT THEN YOU SUDDENLY STRETCHED OUT YOUR FOUR OTHER FINGERS AND SLAPPED ME!"

lol.

Hey.

Your EQ is 153

Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. Seriously though, your whole "Don't Worry, Be Happy" philosophy is really what defines emotional intelligence. You're warm, open, and very optimistic. You know how to act appropriately, even if you don't feel like it. You are a good communicator, and you have little difficulty with personal relationships - even when you're dealing with difficult people. In general, you are successful, capable, together person. You get what you want out of life.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperament Are You?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You Are "Hey"

You are a bit of a wallflower. You're not a big fan of small talk and pointless conversation. You tend to be more of a listener than a talker. You especially hate talking to strangers. You are independent and very creative. You are good at expressing your thoughts, even if you keep most of them private. Some people may see you as standoffish, but you're really a friendly person. It just takes you a while to warm up.

What Greeting Are You?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.


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Hmmm... More or less huh?

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Wah, my EQ so geng.

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Apparently Blogthings is mainly for girls, LOOOOL!

300.

No, I did not rewatch 300 or something.

That would be madness!


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MADNESS? THIS IS THE 300th POST!

*PRESSES 'PUBLISH POST' BUTTON WITH RAGE AND LETS OUT A MIGHTY ROAR!*


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Come to think of it, there is another resolution to my previous post.

It's crazily reckless and of utmost risk.

But I'd do it.

Life is not so bleak after all!

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Sushi Zanmai has awesome sushi, but the rice is very mehhh...

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A month ago. I got into an accident involving vehicles. I broke the motorcycle's 'windshield' and had to fork out RM50, probably not enough, but that's all I had. At least nobody was injured.

A month from then, which is now. My dad got into an accident, this time involving a lorry. The lorry dented my father's car's bonnet badly, and he paid RM200, hardly enough, but that's all he had. At least nobody was injured.

What goes around comes around eh?

Be grateful.

Genocide.

This post is quite brutal, definitely not for the faint-hearted. Highlight to read.

I am serious.


I feel terrible saying this.


I had a dream last night.

No, not in relation to my previous post's 'I Have A Dream.'

I dreamt last night.


In my dream, I set off to kill five people.

Yes, you read that right, 'kill.'

Five people that I knew or am acquainted to in some way, and not just any strangers who I had no relation to.

Why did I do that!? You ask.

Let's just say I was threatened with the lives of my five family members. My dad, my mum, my two sisters and my brother, and I had to kill five to save five.

The villain offered a trade where I'm supposed to pick off his five targets for him in exchange for the safety of my family. Sadly the five targets are all friends/relatives of friends.

Suffice to say, I woke up before I actually killed anyone.

But if it were real...

What would you have done if you were me?


Swallow your dignity and murder the targets to save your family?

or

Save yourself any guilt towards your companions and let your family perish?


Don't give me the cahoots about 'there must be some other way...' Because sometimes, there are just NO TWO WAYS ABOUT IT. If it comes down to it, what would you do?


Some common quotes come to mind.



'Conflict must be avoided no matter what.'

'A blood debt can be repaid only with blood.'

'Revenge only gives birth to more revenge.'

'Whatever will be, will be.'

'Life and Death was predetermined.'

'Only apathy marks the end to a cycle of hatred.'




But you know...

Sometimes... Quotes can be quite nonsensical.

Sometimes... Just believe in what you believe.



So what are you?


A hermit?

A saint?

A martyr?

Or an avenger?

Saturday, Not The Usual One.

Moon was shining brightly tonight. Hmmmm.

Me, looking like God. Mhmmmm.

'Liqi, what are you doing?'

'Replying message.'

'WHAT THE HECK, YOU JUMP ON THAT THING JUST TO REPLY MESSAGE!?'

'Ya, it's the Reply Message Place. HEHEHEHHEE.'

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What is your dream?

(Gets struck by Martin Luther's 'I Have A Dream' speech. Thinks she's talking about ideals and hopes.) Hmmm, need some time to think this through. What's yours?

HMMM I WANNA LIVE IN SWITZERLAND AND EAT LOTS OF CHOCOLATE AND CHEESE!

.... What? That's shallow! I thought you meant like your dream world or ideals or something. (Still stunned because I thought she was talking about ideals.)

Huh, dream world? I KNOW I KNOW! MY DREAM WORLD IS ORANGE IN COLOUR AND THE FLOOR IS BOUNCY SO NOBODY NEEDS TO WALK, JUST SKIP AND SKIP AND SKIP!

(Plays along.) Oh, like this? (Skips, skips, skips.)

YA, EXACTLY! SO FUN RIGHT!?!?!

But then ah, like that people will very fast get tired and then later they will just get sien and emo. :(

-__- SEE? PEOPLE TELL YOU THEIR DREAMS THEN YOU SAY PEOPLE WILL JUST GET SIEN! TOO MUCH AH YOU! SO WHAT WILL YOU SAY IF PEOPLE TOLD YOU 'Ahhh, my dream world is gonna be full of colours, and there will be chocolates and lollipops wherever I go, pigs probably fly there too!'

Oh my God, damn lame wei your world!

Uhh, sounds like yy.

So, what's your dream then?

Nothing like yours.

AHAHAH IS IT FULL OF (=*$#@$) (=*$#@$) (=*$#@$) ?

WHAT THE HECK!?

Then what?

In my dream world.... People live (positively) precariously.


(5 second silence.)


What, they gonna bungee jump everyday?

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Hmmm thanks Ash for the enlightenment.

It seems I might have got some stuff really wrong.

Oh well, no matter. It's not unrepairable.


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TODAE, I WUK AP AT 10.25 AM!

GAS WUT!?

MAI TYUSION AT 10.30 AM!

GEE GEE GEE GEE GEE.

NO NO NO NO NO!


Yeah, rush rush rush. Good thing my tuition is just two doors away kan?

Played cards after tuition with Jung, Koks and Cong. THIS JUNG HACKED THE GAME, I SWEAR! HE WON MOST OF THE GAMES AND HAD MOST OF THE GOOD CARDS MOST OF THE TIME!

Oh wait, how do you hack a card game?



Then I moved on to the main event of the day: Church.

Went to the taxi stand in OU and had to wait for a Jouee to appear. So in the meantime, Koks and I went to the TV shop and I played the PS3.


.... I got beaten by the computer. (While a kid was killing them for fun. Ah, my reputation tarnished.)


Then we went on the taxi with an Indon driver who spoke very Indonized Bahasa Melayu.

Church was more enjoyable than usual. Mainly because my friends kept up with my energetic pace most of the time lol.

Ashley in particular was at her bimbo best to go through the motions with me. We did it all - headbangs, jumps, slow-mo jumps, lyrics-modification, jokes, random shouts of each others names, pretend we are newcomers, talked with headhunters (WHAT?) and speaking in China Accents + English Accents. She was my 'make-sure-we-both-won't-fall-asleep-during-sermon' partner today. AND WE SUCCEEDED! (Whereas Jouee was 'fallen' several times. Cough cough.)

OH THE HILARITY!

Yeah, then we watched Up!. Was not bad. But I thought it's a tad overrated. And certainly non-logical. But we, and any sane man/woman shouldn't expect it to be realistically plausible anyway. It's animation and fiction after all.


As a wise man used to say:


"Every time you apply real-life physics into the world of animation, God kills a kitten."



Please, save those kittens.

"We work to come so far, only to go back to what we ran away from at first. And then we think we've been enlightened once again, so we try to go back to the same place, only to let our fear conquer us. I will walk in circles till the sun burns out my eyes."


Yong Ying, I think we're living parallels.

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(01:36) I AM A LALA!:	i was sticking to him like glue because I can keep talking to him
(01:36) I AM A LALA!:	with no pauses in between for someone else to come in

Must be real nice huh?

Hmmm.. Come to think of it I don't really have a friend that I can do that with. =|

I usually have a million things to say.

But sometimes words just desert me.

I admire that you always know what you should do and what is right to do. But for some unfathomable reason you always don't do it, even if you could.

You're frustrating.

I don't understand you.

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Happy Birthday Clara!

As it is your birthday I shall join your anti-facebook revolution for 5 seconds.


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FACEBOOK SUCKS! >(


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Okay, time to go back to facebook now! :D


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Mum: What are you doing in front of the computer?


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Dang.

Life on a Board.

Big G: This world is rotten. Like an apple that cannot be eaten.

Noah: Really? Why not orange? Such a cause for 'emo'.

Big G: The world is evil. *Deep breath* People killing, people dying, children hurt and you hear them crying. Could you practice what you preach, and will you turn the other cheek?

Noah: FATHER FATHER FATHER HELP US! SEND SOME GUIDANCE FROM ABOVE! PEOPLE GOT ME GOT ME QUESTIONING, WHERE IS THE FLOOD!?

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army_max@hotmail.com has changed his personal message to 'gonna ask!'

lion says:
ask apa /gg
army_max@hotmail.com says:
dun tell u
army_max@hotmail.com says:
haha
lion says:
is it what i think it is? /gg
army_max@hotmail.com says:
wat u think?
lion says:
you gonna ask teacher whether you can go toilet? /gg

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If life was a game of chess, which piece would you be?

Ironically, despite being the most important piece, the King is pretty ineffectual. The Queen on the other hand often calls the shots and is the match-winner. Yet, when the King is threatened, even the Queen has to sacrifice. Quite pathetic really. Always requiring protection while seldom offering it (though certainly capable of), preferring to instead shell away in safety.

Now, I'm not bold or arrogant or even half confident enough to stake claim as the King or the Queen in life, because the truth is, almost everybody is a Pawn.

Make no mistake, most Pawns will perish. Taunted and intimidated by daunting obstacles. Trounced by hardship.

The strong survives and the weak perish. If we were just weak ones, we'd be very much cannon fodder for the anguish of life. Crestfallen and devoid of resistance. Just a mere placeholder.

But if we were strong enough endure it all and survive, we'll move on to greater things, some previously not thought of. We'll be rewarded with the glory and goodness of life. Very much like how a Pawn gets promoted, no?

Personally, I'd never settle with being a mere Pawn all my life. If I ever was one, I'd make sure I'll one day drag myself to the other end and become something better, and not perish in the middle of the merciless battlefield.

Sad thing is, I'm still stuck at square two. Hahaha. 6 squares and plenty of adversity to go!


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"If the King does not move, its subjects will not follow."

Quotes From Today.

Quote of the Day:
Self praise is no praise.

Quote of the Gay:
Self gay is damn freaking gay.

Quote of the Ray:
Gamma.

p/s: Alpha and Beta are particles, not rays. AHHAHAHA.

Quote of the Tay: (Fear, the Jaz's and Huaj's of the world!)

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ESOK KAMI AKAN CHECK RAMBUT!




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I am always called weird by all my friends.

Some for just being true to myself or letting it all out, and some for completely different and sometimes unknown reasons.

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Convenient acting seems to be very much in the blood of human behaviour.

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Some wise man said history was manslaughter.

Well...

Physics was boyslaughter.

I'm very much a boy.

:(


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"Don't worry. It's not over until the fat lady sings."


*Jung starts to sing*


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Damn, I'm sorry.

Video vs Reality.

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I shouldn't have done that.

But I did. So whatever.

Did what?

I watched the Malam Bakat CD when I should have studied. =="

And... I have a few things to say.


1) Is it me or the audio quality was crap compared to what I remembered on that day?

2) ... I bob my head a lot.

3) ... I slant to my right a lot.

4) ... My head can't help but look around a lot.

5) [IMPORTANT POINT] WTHECK LA OUR AUDITION WAS 104938409127840 times better sounding. No wonder huajie keeps on telling me "I'm in pain..." after watching it.

6) [ABSOLUTELY VITAL POINT] And is that my name I keep hearing at the start? LOOOOOOOOL!

The Response.

Arsenal 09/10 - "The Response" from Andrew Chan on Vimeo.

lol. I'm on fanmode again. hahahahaha.

Really makes me happy and optimistic somewhat. :D

Zack. April. May.

What the heck? =="

I'm somehow bustling with energy today.

And the weird thing is.

I slept for a grand total of 30 minutes yesterday! O_o

Weird...

I like weird.

I think the 3 cups of coffee and the cold showers in the middle of the night are working now. =="

Way overdue though.

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Sejarah was manslaughter.

I'm a man.

Geddit, geddit? :D

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Hahaha, I just rediscovered that I really like writing essays today.

I would never have thought in a million years I would write that genre of essay loooool.