To the Moon and Back

I somewhat think that the lady I will one day wed will not be someone that is capable of fulfilling and conforming to my values.

But rather someone that is capable of changing my values.

Causative.

I don't love them enough. Hence I should not expect them to love me as much.

---

It's somewhat caustic to me to not have somebody to love. Somewhat.

Ergo, ergo, ergo?

I have a Fear of Loneliness.

Left and Right I look, People just have that Little More than I do.
A Little More than I can, a Little More than I can have.

I try to pretend I am not, but I truly am. Yes, Envious.

I Liked to Think, and Thought a lot.
'Hey, maybe it's a Problem with Myself! Let's try to Change That!'

I Headbutt myself into the Lives of Others, showing little Concern to the Gazes and Stares.

But with much Caution, Conscious of my own Conscience.

Taking Bullets, breaking Bullets, and reassembling Bullets.

Yet, Slaying the Bull yielded no Beef in The End.
It lies Deeper, Darker than where I can Peer.
With more Danger, Despair than I can Bear.
With Doubt, that I can last another Bout.

I came Back to You, whose benign Love is akin to a Phoenix.

Reborn when Dead, and Rejuvenated when Exhausted.

Refilled when Dried, and Replenished when Extracted.

Inexorable.

But nonetheless Ephemeral...


Ergo, I will not Stop:

I will Continue to Seek,
And Cull my Weak.

Down but up soon.

Yes Life, you've knocked me down. But no, you don't get to win. I'll get up now, and I'll definitely kick you in the ass.

The Fool's Oath.

'Grown numb then grown wont... I swore I'd never return to this place where your tombstone lay. On it the epitaph that I carved and never want to read. Maybe... Maybe! I'm really just a little mad! ... And a little sad... But I'm glad! I think... Or am I, really?'

'Haha yes you are, you are, you really are! You really really really really are! ... You are.'

'I'll never re-enter this maw 'til You grow stronger. I promise.' 

Fullmetal.

Edward: Winry...
Winry: What?
...
Winry: Come on, just tell me straight!
...
Edward: IT'S EQUIVALENT EXCHANGE! I'LL GIVE YOU HALF MY LIFE, SO GIVE ME HALF OF YOURS!
Winry: You idiot... You want half of it? I'll give you all of it...
...
Winry: Wait, maybe not all, 90%! Wait that's still a lot... Maybe 80%, no 70%... Wait 70% is too little, maybe 85%...?

---
Cutest confession and reaction I've read, I swear!
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A lesson without pain if meaningless.
That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.
But, once you've withstood the pain and overcome it.
You will gain a heart that's stronger than any other.
Yes, a Fullmetal heart.

-Edward Elric

They've got nothing on you.

I wonder what got into me to visit a hospital at midnight.
March on, Oranje.

Faith

Hear

See

Confess

Act
Sacrifice
Persevere

Vision of Love

I realised.

I just really like people. : )

A Tinge Of Jealousy.

Me and Huaj


'Wah, you suddenly have growth spurt for hair is it? Leg hair more apparent liau.'


'Hmmm, it's not something I fancy.'


'Well, at least nobody will call you hairless anymore hahaha!'


'Hahaha you know when the girls call me hairless, I always feel that they say so with a tinge of jealousy.'


'Hahaha! Maybe, maybe!'


'Must be working out la, testosterone level increased, then grow more hair.'


'Hmmm, I don't seem to have much hair yet...'


'... You girl-man.'


'I sense a tinge of jealousy!'


HAHAHAHA!

Coup de Grace.

'This is a pursuit where I see no horizon and chase only shadows. But it is still one dream that I will never regret fighting for, however it may end.'


---


Today, while swimming, Ashley suddenly popped a question out of nowhere.
'Are you scared of me?' - Ashley.
I burst out laughing immediately.

According to Jun, Jou and Ash, I portray a nerd really really well.

*NERDLAUGH* HHEHEHEHEHEHE.

HEHE-worthy quotes.

After being slave-driven by the girls in the shopping mall,

'BUTT ON CHAIR IS LIKE HEAVEN ON EARTH!'


'HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN DENIED SHOPPING!'


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'When you take ideas from one person, that's plagiarism. But when you take ideas from many people, it's research!' - Miss Jess


'If you keep turning the key of your car to start the engine, slowly the battery will start to overheat and might explode. Very dangerous. But sometimes you turn the key, turn turn turn, then the battery, gone liau, no more. Then very safe already. You can keep turning until you are satisfied. Won't explode one.' - Mr Hoo


'You can draw me by drawing one small circle, one normal circle, and one big circle, then attach four limbs and that's me la!' - Miss Chin making fun of herself. xD


lol.

She's Nobody's Angel.

'I am really happy and flattered, even honoured that I'm such an important part of your life. But I'm sorry, you're really not that important to me at all.'

Twisted logic.

LET'S SAY, you backed into a man holding a fragile object. The object breaks. You turn around. Thinking it's your fault, you promise him you'd compensate for it. 
However, turns out, that man himself was very much aware of your back-pedalling and could have easily alerted you well beforehand, instead he continued and knocked into you as you backed into him, and thus dropped the object. 
So actually, it's not really your fault after all. 
Should you still have to pay for the object, plainly because you promised, even after you find out it's not your fault at all?


LET'S SAY, I promise to help deliver a package for someone, oblivious to it's contents. 
And then, I find out that it's drugs that is being smuggled. 
Do I comply and still deliver it simply because I promised?


LET'S SAY, you and I are strangers, seeing from afar, I see that you're about my height. I made a bet with you in which I promise to pay you a certain amount of money if you're taller than me. You agreed. We walk towards each other. 
Turns out, you're taller than me.
HOWEVER, you were wearing stilts.
So you really aren't taller than me. No, you're shorter.
I still have to pay because I promised?


LET'S SAY, I promise, I will seek retribution from a certain man for the murder of someone I know.
Turns out, he is innocent.
I still kill him, because I promised, right? By the logic of 'keeping your promises'?


Basically, LET'S SAY:


1) You promise in the state of oblivion.
2) You find out the truth.
3) Do you still have to keep your promise?


Wait, let's put that in perspective once more,


LET'S SAY, you promised to get something done.
Turns out, what you have to do isn't a good deed at all.
I promised you, must I follow suit?


LET'S SAY, I thought I was wrong. I promised to make amends.
Turns out, I was not wrong, YOU were wrong.
But I promised to make amends, so I must keep my promise?


LET'S SAY, I promise, I will massacre the whole of a certain neighbourhood, on the basis that they have contracted an incurable disease that will only spread and cause a pandemic that nobody can escape from.
Turns out, they are healthy and fit as a fiddle.
But I still go on a mass genocide, simply because I promised, even if the basis is no longer true?
'Money is not the problem.' Oh really? Then why are you still seeking compensation, Mr. Hypocrite?

Ludicrous.
And I thought adults were supposedly much too mature for these games.


I'll keep my end of the bargain, but hey, that's only if Truth keeps its end of the bargain.

Snooze

Today when my alarm rang, I was already in the toilet brushing my teeth. (Rare scenario. lol.)

So I ignored it, and incidentally, when I returned to my alarm, my phone read, 'Alarm on 9-minute snooze.'

Even alarms need to snooze, you know?

-.-

Why Am I Gonna Let You Try?

All good things come to an end.

My Blog is good, and This is The End.

I Will Learn Before I Die

In the end, that was an awfully extravagant amount of work and time taken just to light up a few candles.

But it the end, seeing those smiles, it was all worth it. Congratulations! :D

---

... to live, to love and to try.

'I know you're still here and listening. Talk.'

'.....'

'Convince me that you're not here then.'

'I'm really not here!'

Megalomania

It could be wrong, could be wrong, but it should have been right.

---

I hate this shitty feeling lol.

'HELLOOOO! I AM COOL!
Well, looks like I won't be getting 500 Days of Summer in the end.
WHAT'S UP!? I FLUSHED THE TOILET TWICE TODAY! YOU?
But hopefully I'll get another movie that's just as great, if not better next time! : )
GOODBYEEE! SEE YOU ANOTHER DAY!'

Is really not what my blog is about lol.

Nowadays I just blog to note how much I've grown.

And if I'm lucky, inspire somebody!

---

Robbie Williams, please get out of my head? I get your message already.

Just Stand Up! - Various Artists

If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

---

I really like this song!

Jesus, take the wheel.

May have resigned to not winning this battle.

But am determined to never lose this war.

For every little good thing in life... Cheers.

Giving up is always the easy way out.

Running away, it relieves you from all the suffering and sadness you feel.

But something inside just whispers,

'Keep on fighting. Keep on fighting!'

In the end, giving up never gets you anything.

---

'A driver without a car doesn't get too far.'

---

So why the hell are you so easily discouraged?

Perfect by Nature.

You've given up before the struggles.

Resigned to perishing to a disastrous end.

There you lay,

Broken and battered in the maw of strife.

You could ...

muster every sinew and numb out every pain.

Search.

Seek.

Scavenge.

Salvage.

Perhaps, just perhaps.

You might stumble across the reins that you lost hold of long ago.

So, so long ago.

And take it up again.

To retake this battlefield.

... Or you could just have all the regrets carved forever on your epitaph.

Try.

And even if you were to face off against the infinite universe,

That may just make all the difference.

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Hope bravely.

At times like these I just wish someone would tell me a joke for a change.

'You know, I don't think I'll ever have many girlfriends in my life. I'm just the kind that, from the moment I fall, can imagine myself walking down the aisle with that girl, and walk on for the rest of time.'

Soonyi: You know ah, I think Train sounded better in Drops of Jupiter. The Hey Soul Sister he sing until like damn strained. *sings* Your lipstick stains~~

Kokweng: OMG I thought it was your lipstick stinks!

Aiman: Li Qi, you not hot one meh?

Me: No, it's alright. They say you're only afraid of what's hotter than you. This is fine.

Clara: Li Qi are you scared now? *approach*

Even if we were to face against the infinite world.

I don't think too many of you would be interested. But I found a nice article I thought I'd share.

http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/sport/football/761055/Convictions-wins-football-matches-and-the-Hammers-lacked-it.html

Yes, it's football related. But the core value I want to share is still there.

Conviction.

Conviction keeps you going.

Conviction sees you through the toughest days.

Conviction is what wins you anything significant in life.

Conviction brings out the best in you even when you're at your worst and guides you to the top.

Conviction spits at despair during the most daunting times and relishes facing the most challenging obstacles, desiring only to put yourself through the battle and emerging victorious and triumphant.

Conviction is the very flint of a victor's bright burning flame.

Have a good read.

In the meantime, I shall go plant seeds on conviction in my own 'sanubari' and 'jiwa.'

See you at the pinnacle!

Boyfriend: Eh, aren't you tired?

Girlfriend: No, I'M A MAN!

Boyfriend: Yeah and we're gays right? Hahahah!

It's always going to be an uphill battle.

I'm in a very good mood today! ^.^V

Everything else is a blessing.

Set the world in motion.

I am bored. EHHEHehEHhEHEZxx ^^V

I just got a roasting from my parents. :(

Let me tell you a secret!

...

I am...

... Actually a ninja in disguise.

---

Pn. Tn. Rohani: (In a very fast and very happy, but blur tune) YOU ALL ARE THE BEST LA, ALL OF YOU GOT 8A'S AND ABOVE SO PENGETUA WILL BE GIVING YOU ALL YOUR SLIPS. YOU ALL ARE ALL VERY GOOD, I THINK ALL OF YOU HAD GOOD RESULTS! (Gasp, lost for words!) (Continues talking.)

'YAYYYYYYYYYY!'

(everyone looks)

'I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE JUST SAID BUT SOUNDS LIKE GOOD NEWS!'

---

How much for the W705?

Erm, 950.

That guy at the other shop offered me 770 with 4 gigabytes and the usb connector as well.

Huh? 770 ah!?

*Flips some book, probably a pricelist*

Miss, the stock price is already 810, so there's no way he can give you 770.

Oh.... Maybe that guy bluff me then.

Ashley you so kawaii~! ^.^V

---

Koks, luckily the guy at the shop didn't go

'HEY, BE A MAN, AND DO THE RIGHT THING.'

when you bargained wei!

Haha, sometimes people tell me I'm like the brother they never had.

Kinda flattering heh!

(And lol to the girls converting to Arsenal fans. -.-)

Breathe Easy.

No sad faces. No regrets. No disappointments.

We didn't lose to anybody when it comes to the effort that we've put in.

The rest just never were in our hands to begin with.

So chin up, greens. : )

You all did a great job.

Mortified.

My old school mates.
It's exactly days like these that make me realise how useless I am.
Good luck to everyone who is involved.

Especially my greens! : )

Aaron Ramsey,

Get well soon.

Victoria Concordia Crescit.

HAPPY PICTURES!

And this is sempena the tiger year lol.

For all the ambitious cats:

Down, down in an earlier round.

Dear Autumn: For the best part of my life, all the girls I've liked have never liked me. Maybe you'll be the first!

Here's an 'I love you' in advance.

Lo and Behold.

'My life sucks wei.'

'LiQi, Why?'

'What?

'Why you emo?'

'I'm talking about the game la!'

'OHHH!'

---

'Seriously wei, my life sucks.'

'Huh?'

'See, I'm dying liau.'

'OH CHEH I THOUGHT WHY YOU EMO!'

---

Brilliant friends! So caring!

Yet, they let me sleep on a chair. -.-

---

Heh I think I jinxed myself.

English Lesson 101.

When I was younger, I had two really close friends. They were Ken and Kent.

I owe those two a huge favour. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't have learnt two really important words. Two words that would be used daily, almost in every other sentence we speak or write.

When I was younger, my English was terrible and I could hardly speak a whole sentence without going wrong. However, they saved me.

Ken was a really helpful boy. He would volunteer to help whenever a situation arises. He would do it, not matter what!

Kent, on the other hand, was not really helpful. He would be reluctant, if ever willing to help, no matter the circumstances.

After years of mingling with them. I have learnt to match those two important words to their personalities, and it helped. And now my English is relatively fluent.

Those two words...

Were 'Can' and 'Can't'!

HEY CAN YOU HELP ME GET THAT BOOK ON THE SHELF?

(Remembers Ken.)

KEN!

HEY CAN YOU HELP ME GO TO THE OTHER END OF THE STREET TO FIND MY UNCLE'S GRANDDAUGHTER'S BOYFRIENDS' MOTHER?

(Remembers Kent.)
KENT!

Yeahp.

Ken = Can

Kent = Can't

Hahaha, I will not lie.

Being mischievous and playful is a trait that I really like.

FIGHT FOR YOUR JUSTICE.

Has anyone ever told you, 'You looked nice for the 2 seconds.' before?

Well, it seems like...

I have the uncanny ability to look good for two seconds!

Yes, you read that right. I do have that ability. 

Yep, look good. Yes, for two(2) seconds.

.............

-.-

According to some of the testaments sent in by my so called friends. That's because I cannot-

a) last 2 seconds without pulling a stupid face.

b) last 2 seconds without saying something stupid.

c) last 2 seconds without doing something dumb. (e.g. jump around and poking other people.)

THAT'S A LIE ISN'T IT? 

I MEAN, HOW CAN JUMPING AROUND BE A DUMB THING? POKING PEOPLE MIGHT POSSIBLY BE WRONG, BUT IT CANNOT BE DUMB!

AND I AM NOT DUMB! I DON'T HAVE A STUPID FACE EITHER (because I'm always cool, duh.) AND DOES SOMEONE AS INTELLIGENT AND WISE AS ME LOOK LIKE I WILL SAY SOMETHING STUPID?

IT'S ALL LIES! ZERO TRUTH IN IT! IF IT WAS A PHYSICS EXPERIMENT, THE TRUTH VALUE OF THIS IS PROBABLY 100±100. THAT'S RIGHT. THE UNCERTAINTY PERCENTAGE IS 100%!

RISEEE MY TRUE FRIENDS!!!! FIGHT THIS SACRILEGIOUS BLASPHEMY WITH ME!

WE WILL UNITE AND BATTLE AGAINST THOSE EVIL LIARS!

Right, my friends? :D

....

Right.......?

.....

._.

The Price of Freedom.

I like this picture.

You know why?

I HAD VERY LITTLE PIMPLES BACK THEN! :(

I Didn't.

Ashlet: Hey, tomorrow afternoon want go dinner? :D

---

We watched about 20 minutes of Twilight in class yesterday.

My class is full of Twilight fans. We especially adore Edward Cullen. (less than three)

Miss Jess: Okay, so Bella meets this guy, Edward who is actually a vampire, in lab period. 

Me: Yes teacher, I remember his face oh so vividly. Although he supposedly was nauseous, he was constipating!

Edward: ... Need... To... Poop....

*laughter*

Someone: YA NOT ENOUGH FIBRE INTAKE!

*laughter*

Miss Jess: *laughs* Yes I agree with you! He looks like he is constipating!

... Well some don't. But we think he's really hot. Like seriously. Hot like fire.

(The first scene where Edward appears, walking in after the rest of the Cullens and Hales.)

Huajie: AHHHHHHHHH!!! I MIGHT DIEEEE!

(The scene where Edward stops the truck with his bare hands.)

Me: MY HEROOOOOO!

Miss Jess hates Bella, probably.

(First scene of the show, camera faces Bella.)

Ye Young: Wah, so hot!

...

Miss Jess: Oh... My... God...

Class: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHA!

And here's our mini-interview with Miss Jess regarding Twilight.

Huajie: Teacher, are you a fan?

Miss Jess: Mmmm, Yes I am!

Huajie: Who introduced the book to you?

Miss Jess: Erm... My 8 year old niece!

Me: Wah so young. Teacher even your niece more canggih.

Miss Jess: Yes, she was asking me to buy it for her as a birthday present. So I bought it, and I read it!

Huajie: Wah teacher, that's not good. You gave a second hand present!

---

Me: Teacher, do you prefer Edward or Jacob?

Miss Jess: Mmmm, for the character, Edward. For the actor, Jacob.

Huajie: Oooooh, so teacher you like the book or the movie more.

Miss Jess: The book. The movie sucks.

!

---

Huajie: So teacher, what made you hate the movie?

Miss Jess: I guess it's the imperfection of Edward. When I saw the movie I was like, 'No, that's not Edward. Edward's not like that.' Edward is supposed to be like this.. Perfect, perfect guy!

---

Yes my teacher is a Twilight fan girl! xD

That.

'No, I'm feeding mangoes to my guitar. -.-'

'Omgosh, King Neptune visited today, then I met Britney Spears in the toilet!'

---

Today when I came out from my room after taking a bath, I was wearing my Arsenal jersey.

As I stepped out, one of my mother's students stared intensely at me, and I returned the favour. We stared down for about 10 seconds during which lightning hit and thunder sounded. It was going to rain. The ultimate showdown was about to begin... But that was before I decided I should take my leave and I just made a stupid face and headed off.

He was donning a United jersey.

I ownz.

... and the other 10 students were staring at me weirdly. 

I knew. From the beginning.

A man who would not get angry, mad or saddened when he loses.

A man who would not boast, gloat or tease when he triumphs.

A companion that is never for a moment dull and always full of fun.

A human being that is compassionate and caring.

A person who is forgiving and unjudgemental.

A lifeform that is thankful in every circumstance.

That's the person I want to be.

Seems like I have a long way to go.

The person I want to be and the person I want.

They'd make a pretty good couple. Heh.

---

You make me smile!

---

Trivia:

Did you know, that if you add 'when I'm compared to you.' behind any compliment that starts with 'You make me', it becomes an insult?

To be honest.

There's no point if there's no joy.

I once knew of a boy who smiled a lot. But no matter how much he smiled. You just somewhat sensed that there was a melancholic meaning hiding behind those pearly white teeth.

So why does he smile?

I know not. Perhaps it was to not worry the people he cared for. Perhaps it was to convince himself that he has not been brought down. Perhaps it is to convince himself that he actually is happy. Maybe he just wants to smile.

But in the end. It is but a pointless facade.

But whatever it is.

I'm not going back to being that weak-willed, helpless little boy again.

---

some stupid emo post on some stupid emo forum i saw.

Can tell me why people so emo these days ah? Very fun meh. -.-

'I want to cut myself. This life has no meaning. I don't need anything else now.'

Please do if you so desire to waste your life.

At least this guy wants to change! :D

Love letter to Miss Sunshine.

Dear brilliant Sunshine,

I've seen you grow up since I was born. You used to be so gentle... You gently carressed my skin and brought warmth to my life. You brought light to my eyes and I spent many countless days staring at your brilliance.

You were like this:

But now... You're like...

This... >(

---

Lately the weather's been like a frying pan.

How I wish I have a flying fan.

If this goes on, I'm gonna have a tan.

But it's alright. I am a man!

Why is the weather so panas baran lately?

If only it can eat a chill pill and feel the ice cold of the air cond.

Then it will calm down and sits down and go 'PHEW I SHOULDN'T HAS ACTS SO BRASHLY!'.

If I ken has you, I no want nopati else bebeh.

Yala, bodoh Matahari. I wish you burn yourself out and perish soon! Oh wait. You ARE doing that.

Dang, I will miss you Mentari-sama. Please don't go away, you used to treat me so sweet, now you treat me so sour! Just give me one more chance! But please be more shy and hide behind the clouds more ah, I no want to see you so much. EHEHEHEhEhEHeZxx ^^V

---

In short, why is the weather so calamitously hot lately? 

---

Elsewhere, I've made some friends, I must say. 

And we played futsal yesterday, under the burning hot shades of gold that you exude.

Which brings me back to the crux of the letter.

CHILL LA WEI, VERY HOT LAHHH!

Sincerely,

Your loving, ever-so macho uncle,

Sally.

Smells Like Teen Spirit.

---

Just kinda browsing through my old pictures. :D

Fun times, fun times!

And more to come, surely?

---

Explode and burst forth!
Jump and be morphed!

No time to waste!

It is a race!

Bring on your zeal!

Show us some steel!

Don't hide your face!

Just feel the taste!

Ribbit!

It's the teen spirit!

Is this as far as I get?

Feel it!

The teen spirit!

No, Dad! Please don't regret!

Banana split!

It smells like teen spirit!

Just reset and get set!

Sprint off the line!

You little porcupine!

(No this is not the lyrics of the song. Just me blabbering around. lol!)

Hello.

I know I don't belong here and I'm not supposed to be here.

But I like being here and I'll stay here and enjoy my time until I'm found out. And then I'll leave.

Victoria Concordia Crescit

'WHO ARE YOU KIDDING? 

WE ARE TOP OF THE LEAGUE!'

Where is the Love, Arsenal version. :D

I am not a hero. I am not an angel. I'm just a man.
Man who's tried to love her. Unlike any other. In her eyes, I am.
Nice song. :D

The Dunce Repents.

Repent! Repent!
Quickly, before your life is spent!
Dissent! Dissent!
Where have thee courage went?
Resent! Resent!
Let not your will be bent!
Ascent! Ascent!
Ignore the temptations the Devil has sent!

Do not relent!
Do not lament!
Do not assent!
Do not be dent!

---

Sometimes I want to explode.

Summer Sunshine.

Shadows race through the woods.

Leaves rustle under the moonlight.

Fates unwind and intertwine.

 

‘Jake, come on! Get up and get moving, don’t sleep down there!’

‘You go on! Leave me behind, I can’t make it, I’ll only be a burden.’

‘You’re nobody’s burden, you’ve been great all this while, now get up!’

‘No, please leave me behind! I’m useless now.’

‘Shut up, no way we’re doing that!’

‘No Zack, really, please lea-‘

‘SHUT UP AND LISTEN!’

 

A rare moment of silence. 

 

‘Look, nobody, nobody! Nobody can say they haven’t been proud of you so far. You have been nothing short of a revelation. You were the one that saved us. You were the one that got us through that shithole there. You were the one that came up with the plan! It worked, and we’re alive. Now don’t give up just like that! If you’re a real man, get back on your feet!’

‘But I really believe I'll only be a bur-‘

‘No buts! Just shut up and listen to me. Don't believe in yourself! Believe in me who believes in you! You’re not useless, no, not at all! Not even in this state! Now get going, we really don’t have much time.’

 

Jake takes Zack’s outstretched hand and together with Belle, they sprint through the woods as quickly as they could.

 

‘Any sign of them?’

‘No, Sir.’

‘Keep searching!’

‘Yes, Sir!’

‘Zack, I think we’ve lost those mercenaries.’

‘Let’s hope so. Keep going!’

 

 

Forests are really cold at night. Cold like ice.

On that night, the insignificant, inglorious flame of the campfire was the only source of warmth in that muddy, unsightly marsh which was in no way mellow at all.

 

‘Hey, Jake!’

‘Hey, Belle.’

‘Feeling better yet?’

‘A lot better, thanks to Zack!’

‘Yeah, he’s really great isn’t he?’

‘Indeed!’

 

Jake scans Belle’s (who was grimacing in pain) face and he notices that she wants to say something but is hesitant.

‘I-‘ 

‘You like him, don’t you?’

‘Eh wha-‘

‘I can tell!’

‘… Really?’

“Haha it’s alright, I won’t scream it out loud!’

‘Thanks!’

‘I’ll tell you something about him!’

‘I’m all ears!’

‘Me and him, we’re brothers! Well we’re not blood related, but it’s as close as it gets. We’re both orphans, you know. Our parents died in an earthquake when we were little and we met soon after at the orphanage. He was the crazy loudmouth who never knew how to keep quiet and I admired him for his tenacity and willpower. The two of us and our friends always got bullied by the bigger boys but he always stood up for us. Even though we never won and got beaten up all the time, he still would stand up in front of them if they come, telling us, ‘Believe in yourselves!’ and ‘Don’t give in to them!’ And those soon became his signature phrase.

There was once when we got trapped under the debris during an earthquake. We thought we would be dead for sure, but Zack didn’t give up. He just kept smiling and laughing, yelling at us, ‘Come on guys, this is nothing, we can get out of this mess! Believe in yourselves!’, ‘It’s just rocks boys! You’re gonna let rocks beat you?’, ‘This is stupid, they thought this would stop us?’, ‘Ah, a new game from the Gods, I like it!’ He always laughed off all his problems. Honestly, if it weren’t for him, perhaps I would have given up and died in that pile of rubble. But thanks to him, I didn’t, I felt that I couldn’t complain if he put it that way, and I persisted. We persevered and we soon got out of the mess, alive and well.

I always needed to rely on him… And this time too. I’m really pathetic eh?’

‘No you’re not!’

‘He… Makes the impossible possible. He makes things happen.

He’s… The best big brother I’ll ever have…

A pause.

‘Hey I think I’ll go get some rest now.’

‘Don’t get upset! And thanks for the story, Jake! Good night!’

 

 

Belle treads carefully on the muddy forest floor, trying to not wake Zack up. She finally gets to the tree that Zack was leaning against, but unfortunately, being the utter klutz that she is to increase her kawaii rating, she couldn't help but spoil the moment by stepping on a twig.

‘Oh, Belle, not resting yet?’

‘Sorry, I woke you up!’

‘It’s fine! Is something up?’

‘Oh no- No, nothing! Jake just told me about your childhood just now!’

‘Jake did? Hahaha, well what’d he tell you?’

‘About the orphanage. And the earthquake!’

‘Oh, he sure likes to boast!’

‘What?’

‘Hahaha, I’ve never people this, but the kids never really got along with me you know? They thought I was a noisy eyesore, that I’m cocky and that I’m arrogant. Well, maybe I am, but that’s not the point. The point is, they disliked me! And so I thought that if I stood up for them, and got beaten up for them, they might like me a little more. It didn’t work. They’d just leave me be and let the older boys beat me. But Jake, that popular kid, he would fight with me, and so I fought for him.

I wasn’t the only one though. He got along really well with the rest of the kids, and they couldn’t bear seeing him get beaten. And everything started from there. Even after being bruised and battered, we little boys could still find joy and laugh at what happened then, and all of us became close friends soon after.

And that’s the true story of the orphanage.’

‘Oh…’

‘The earthquake! It was terrifying. I have never been more afraid and death had never been more real. All I could do to prevent myself from breaking down was to laugh at the very source of the terror, hoping that it would suppress my fears.

I put on a brave front and pretended to not be intimidated. But that was all I could do. It was Jake again, who got me out of trouble. Silently, using some tools we found, he just kept pressing on without complaining, breaking away boulder and rock after boulder and rock. His silent determination inspired us, and we never gave up until the end. And, we got out of that mess, alive and well.

So you see, I’ve always relied on him when trouble came calling.

I was so glad that I could help him escape this time.

He’s… The best little brother I’ll ever have.’

‘I see…’

‘Is something wrong?’

‘No, but he said he was the one that always relied on you!’

‘Gah, that liar! I was the one that always relied on his abilities. All I ever did was be a cheerleader and go ‘Believe in yourself!’ All I ever did was trust in him. He was the one that made the invisible visible and the unseen seen. He made things happen.’

‘Heh, you two really are brothers! You say the same things!’

‘Huh? I can’t imagine him saying ‘Believe in yourself!’ in a girly voice, Cheerleader style!’

‘Mmmmm, who knows! He could have!’

‘HE REALLY DID THAT?’

‘No I’m not telling you!’

‘I’m not letting you get away! Tell me!’

‘No way!’

 

‘AHA! You’re cornered now!’

‘Oh nooooo, I’m so afraid! What are you gonna do to me!?!?’

‘I’m not letting you go!’

‘Oh pleaseeee don’t do that to me! Will you kindly let me go if I give you a kiss!?’

‘Well that’s almost too good to refuse! I’ll think abou-‘

 

 

’Ten times.’

‘What?’

‘When the war ends, I’ll repay that to you ten times.’

 ‘Oh…

I can’t wait for the war to end then!’

 

 

 ‘You know, I’m really surprised!’

‘About what?’

‘I always thought you liked Jake!’

‘Did not!’

‘How about that time at the barn where you two were gazing at the stars on the roof!’

‘That was nothing! We were just chatting!’

‘AH, and the time where you made coffee for him but not for me!’

‘That was just to tease you!’

‘Ohhhh, is that so? I’m going to tell Jake about your adoration for him tomorrow morning!’

‘Hey!’

‘Boo booooo! You cannot catch me! You cannot- OWW THAT HURT!’

‘Serves you right! Don’t play with these things!’

‘Right, right!’

‘Hey look, it’s sunrise!’

‘Wow, it’s beautiful, ain’t it?’

‘Yeah, let’s go wake Jake up! It’s too good to miss!’

‘Let’s!’

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Influences: Kamina, Simon, Yoko - TTGL.

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I got carried away with the last part. Had to end somehow though.

Sorry the narrating was a bit quack. HAHAHAHAH!

My message?

Sometimes, when you lose a little faith in yourself, how about you believe those who believe in you a little more?

Tolerate my horrible attempt at romance writing, but I thought the rest were quite alright. HEHEHE.

Trivia! When you join Jake and Zack, you get Jack!